Okay ::~*

The dreams were many,

the thoughts were more.

I thought too much,

on what I thought was real.

But the Lord showed me,

as was my prayer,

that I had been making

this almost more than He.

And so, with many tears,

along with some sobs,

I realized it was not to be,

and perhaps God was just testing me.

The pain was real and strong,

as I thought of two things.

One: I made this too big,

two: God is enough for me.

So as I cried in the dark,

my heart prayed and cried, too.

"Lord help me love You,

much more than this."

I asked for peace and trust,

to do what I knew I must.

And with a sense of being weary and worn,

a word formed in my heart and mind.

A word I hadn't thought of,

in my cries for comfort and peace.

"Okay," my heart said,

"Okay, my Lord.

I know You are all,

I know I need no more than You.

I know You love me,
I know You are kind.

So when You ask me to resign,

I say, with a heart of love and faith,

pain, hurt, awe and peace,

such wonderful, all-consuming peace,

Okay."

~4-2-10